Saturday, May 11, 2013

A New Mother in the NICU

My son was born at Mt. Sinai and went straight into the NICU.

I've only been back there once because around seven or eight years ago someone at work was doing a workshop there and needed an extra set of hands.

I told myself that I could go back, and that it would be no big deal-sure-I can help you set up.

I went inside and felt a little woozy. We went up to the room and I apologized to my colleague and told her that I had to leave. I could barely breathe, I was having a panic attack.

I ran all the way from the hospital back to my office and tried to calm down.

Even today, when I close my eyes, I can still smell the NICU, hear the beeping, and I have flashbacks to the near death experiences-both me and my son.

It's very hard having a sick baby-it's a whole other world. Even thought it was 13 years ago, I haven't "gotten over it".

There are some things in life that you never "get over", you just go through.

As I watched this, I also couldn't help thinking how at 31 weeks, these babies are only a few weeks older than those butchered by Kermit Gossnell in Philadelphia.

How anyone can look at this and be pro-abortion is beyond my comprehension.

I hope these little guys get home, happy and healthy really soon.